<-- Ratholer

Nitted up. Didn't help a whole lot, lost a couple of buy-ins.

Really, I've lost all confidence in my game right now, and for good reason. It's 100% true that I've run awfully in this downswing. Nobody would deny that if they saw it. However, even if I ran average, I don't know if I would be a break-even player, if that. Looking at some of the big hands I lost... well, there's a whole lot of "WTF were you thinking you fucking donk" moments.

There's just something about the online game that completely destroys my focus. I can't explain it. I get distracted very very easily... plus the lack of real time to make a decision makes things much much harder for me.

With the way I'm playing right now, the frame of mind I'm in and the distractions I have (ex. exam time) I have no confidence in my ability to be a winning online NL 6-max player. I no longer have the bankroll to feel comfortable playing PLO or HUNL. (I will always feel I have an edge in these games if I can afford it).

The solution is my latest experiment, shortstacking. In the last two days, after working out some rough math, I've played roughly 4750 hands mass-tabling, mostly 100NL. I broke even over that stretch despite continuing to run brutally (more on that below), but because I'm putting in way more volume than I ever have before, I've made $100 in rakeback over that time. Even if I run at 1 PtBB/100 and play only 10K hands a week at 100NL... with rakeback that's still ~$450 a week. I'll take it.

Even when I get my BR back to where I'm comfortable I may continue shortstacking just because it's so gosh darn fun. I always assumed that SSing would be a dull, boring style of poker, and maybe it will be eventually. However, right now playing flippaments on a dozen tables is pretty awesome.

Here's how I ran today.
In 1355 hands, I played 27 hands that finished +/- $18 or more. I won 12 and lost 15.
The 12 hands I won, I averaged +$25.7 (I played some 200NL). In these hands I was the dominant favourite 7 times, was flipping 3 times, was dominated 0 times, one was a 60/40 and 1 was a 3-bet bluff on the flop w/ an OESD against a maniac.

In the 15 hands I lost, I averaged - $36.46. In these hands I was a dominant favourite 3 times, was flipping 5 times, was dominated 4 times, was 60/40 favourite 1 time, 1 was where I bluffed off some money PoF after I had gotten deeper than normal, and 1 where I had to 3bet/fold (again, a lil deeper than normal).

I made a couple of mistakes that I can't afford to make when my strat is so marginally profitable anyways, but I feel pretty happy about how I'm playing my shortstack. (And how other people play shortstacks! Good lord!). We'll see how it goes.

Oh yeah, and I found myself playing some HULHE today, but got out losing only $35.

Good news: I got Chinese Democracy, the new GnR album, and I had pretty low expectations but it's fucking awesome. Listened to it 4 times since Friday. Put it right up there w/ Appetite for Destruction IMO.